Terry, I know exactly how you feel. Spencer will be 14 in June. I know this sounds awful, but every night I go to sleep wondering if I will find him still with me in the morning. He has some health problems, and I know he is old. Honestly, him going in his sleep would be my wish, after what I went through with Sadie, but it doesn't make it any easier. It's also hard because some people have begun to ask me if I am going to get another dog "after Spencer." Sometimes I want to push them down! I think the weather does contribute to the feelings. I don't know about where you are, but this winter has been cold & cloudy here. The other day, we saw the sun for the 1st time in 2 weeks. We're expecting to get 3-6" of snow by noon Saturday. Ugh. Just the other day, I whispered into Spencer's ear that in about 4-5 months, he'd be stretched out on the green grass in the sun while I tended to the flowers in our yard. I hope that turns out to be true for both of us.