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They say one day at a time – I’m finding that sometime its one minute at a time. Ya never know when it’s going to hit you.
So hubby and I were sitting at the kitchen table a few days after we lost Flash, still crying beating ourselves up with all the what if’s you can ask yourself. Now, I know in my head with Dr. Allen by our side every step of the way there is nothing we could have done. But it’s the heart that gets you every time.
Anyway, back to the point of this posting. We’re sitting at the table and hubby says, this place isn’t going to be ok again till we have the thumping of little feet running around. So I tell him, come here – let me show you something – I’m not sure if she’s still available or not because when Flash took such a turn for the worse I wasn’t really paying much attention anymore to their status, but I can send a message to see. Sure enough she is available. Which brings me directly to the point of this posting.
We’ve been adopted by one of the puppy’s that were born when my Flasher got sick. One that we’ve all been watching each step with the beautiful photos that have been posted. I know it sounds funny to some – but I believe Flash brought me to this site and to the puppy. When asked what would we do if we lost one of our girls – we’ve always said, if it were Lucy we would get another rescue, if it were Flash it would be one from a breeder. I’ve “never” taken step one to research a breeder because the obvious reason I couldn’t stand the thought of losing my Flash, much less spending time researching what’s going to come when she is no longer. Unthinkable!!!! I’ve been on computers since the 80/86’s and on the internet since its been – I’ve never shared such a personal journey or anything else with anyone but family and friends eye to eye – I just know in my heart that Flash knew momma wouldn’t know what to do if she didn’t have a little one to nurture and love when she left me and brought me here.
So Saturday we filled the car with Lucy and Rickie and headed to Ohio to meet our new family member half way. I keep saying I should have named her distraction because that’s what she is. She’s fun to watch explore the new world around her, she’s great at spooning, cut as a button and best she doesn’t look like my Flasher – she comes to me as her own little hound dog that will find her own spot in my heart to fill up. And just maybe sooner than later, I wouldn’t have tears falling down my face for her to wash off.
So many of you have been as invested in Flash as I at the end and thought I owed you the respect to not dissolve, but work through my pain by coming back on this site. I’m not at a place to say I’m ok – but with baby steps moving forward. I also wanted to say thank you again for sharing my journey with Flash and ask if you can come on a new one with me when I introduce our new baby. I’m sure the first posting about our new baby will not be an easy one by the tears I’m shedding with this one – but I know I need to start a new memory here that brings joy and not tears.
I pray that Flash is running the fields with all my love ones I’ve lost and eating all the cookies she can – also for all the sick hound dogs out there and for their love ones to have the strength to deal with what needs to be done or if the unthinkable should happen the loss.
Jen~
So hubby and I were sitting at the kitchen table a few days after we lost Flash, still crying beating ourselves up with all the what if’s you can ask yourself. Now, I know in my head with Dr. Allen by our side every step of the way there is nothing we could have done. But it’s the heart that gets you every time.
Anyway, back to the point of this posting. We’re sitting at the table and hubby says, this place isn’t going to be ok again till we have the thumping of little feet running around. So I tell him, come here – let me show you something – I’m not sure if she’s still available or not because when Flash took such a turn for the worse I wasn’t really paying much attention anymore to their status, but I can send a message to see. Sure enough she is available. Which brings me directly to the point of this posting.
We’ve been adopted by one of the puppy’s that were born when my Flasher got sick. One that we’ve all been watching each step with the beautiful photos that have been posted. I know it sounds funny to some – but I believe Flash brought me to this site and to the puppy. When asked what would we do if we lost one of our girls – we’ve always said, if it were Lucy we would get another rescue, if it were Flash it would be one from a breeder. I’ve “never” taken step one to research a breeder because the obvious reason I couldn’t stand the thought of losing my Flash, much less spending time researching what’s going to come when she is no longer. Unthinkable!!!! I’ve been on computers since the 80/86’s and on the internet since its been – I’ve never shared such a personal journey or anything else with anyone but family and friends eye to eye – I just know in my heart that Flash knew momma wouldn’t know what to do if she didn’t have a little one to nurture and love when she left me and brought me here.
So Saturday we filled the car with Lucy and Rickie and headed to Ohio to meet our new family member half way. I keep saying I should have named her distraction because that’s what she is. She’s fun to watch explore the new world around her, she’s great at spooning, cut as a button and best she doesn’t look like my Flasher – she comes to me as her own little hound dog that will find her own spot in my heart to fill up. And just maybe sooner than later, I wouldn’t have tears falling down my face for her to wash off.
So many of you have been as invested in Flash as I at the end and thought I owed you the respect to not dissolve, but work through my pain by coming back on this site. I’m not at a place to say I’m ok – but with baby steps moving forward. I also wanted to say thank you again for sharing my journey with Flash and ask if you can come on a new one with me when I introduce our new baby. I’m sure the first posting about our new baby will not be an easy one by the tears I’m shedding with this one – but I know I need to start a new memory here that brings joy and not tears.
I pray that Flash is running the fields with all my love ones I’ve lost and eating all the cookies she can – also for all the sick hound dogs out there and for their love ones to have the strength to deal with what needs to be done or if the unthinkable should happen the loss.
Jen~
